tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12075278.post8014025457619205363..comments2023-11-02T02:15:53.002-07:00Comments on Job's Tale: Over The RainbowCurious Servanthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11564580536911743558noreply@blogger.comBlogger33125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12075278.post-87866715606631958912007-04-03T06:21:00.000-07:002007-04-03T06:21:00.000-07:00Dear Curious Servant,Continue to seek God's face m...Dear Curious Servant,<BR/>Continue to seek God's face my friend. Remember His promise to be with you always... I need to remind myself of this promise every day. "And the Lord, he it is who doth go before thee; he will be with thee, he will not fail thee, neither forsake thee; fear not, neither be dismayed."<BR/>In Christ,<BR/>Susan<BR/>Founder of "Anna's Place"<BR/>www.shareyourgrief.blogspot.comSusan Skitthttps://www.blogger.com/profile/13871921369901815459noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12075278.post-35275798453395240802007-03-30T19:24:00.000-07:002007-03-30T19:24:00.000-07:00just stopping by to see how you are doing...prayin...just stopping by to see how you are doing...<BR/><BR/>praying for you and your family.<BR/><BR/>take care my friend : )<BR/><BR/>blessings,<BR/>cocoCocohttps://www.blogger.com/profile/06648699375453601098noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12075278.post-3582149841739958722007-03-30T19:00:00.000-07:002007-03-30T19:00:00.000-07:00...lifting it to our Father......lifting it to our Father...Erinhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/12979627849688965995noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12075278.post-6785058864099057882007-03-30T10:37:00.000-07:002007-03-30T10:37:00.000-07:00Praying for you CS. Hang in there!Praying for you CS. Hang in there!Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12075278.post-64248917033427441862007-03-30T04:46:00.000-07:002007-03-30T04:46:00.000-07:00so much has been said. I will say two things.First...so much has been said. I will say two things.<BR/><BR/>First, you were incredibly loving of Brenda - the criticism you feel is certainly in your heart and not in your words as I was impressed by how carefully you explained a very difficult and sad situation to us.<BR/><BR/>Second, I will pray.<BR/><BR/>MeMelissahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/03418200517338216765noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12075278.post-19511914655152671662007-03-28T17:51:00.000-07:002007-03-28T17:51:00.000-07:00Thanks.Not sure what to say... things have gotten ...Thanks.<BR/><BR/><BR/>Not sure what to say... things have gotten a little harder lately. I tried my hand at writing a post... a way to sort things out in my own head... but I'm too tired (or too depressed) to finish it right now.<BR/><BR/>I appreciate all the prayers, the kind words.<BR/><BR/>It isn't just that life is hard... but it's also weird.<BR/><BR/>At any rate... I think I'll go do a little reading right now. Seek a little quiet.Curious Servanthttps://www.blogger.com/profile/11564580536911743558noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12075278.post-48907313736027655932007-03-28T07:55:00.000-07:002007-03-28T07:55:00.000-07:00I am so sorry for your hardships. It is so difficu...I am so sorry for your hardships. It is so difficult to help someone see that all they want, is truly right there with them. Be it God, be it your family. God called your wife to the journey you all are on and gave her the grace to walk it...if only she take hold of that grace. But she must take it, you can not do it for her. Right now in my life my journey is hard, very hard, and the road is long. Discouragement and doubt knock at my door daily. Some days I am sad to say I open the door...and the fight to get them to leave is a hard one. I work to not answer those knocks or even look thru the peephole!<BR/>So I pour truth into my life in every way I can...I listen to many talks online, I read, I listen to audio books in my car... I fight the voices that are lies, with the voices of truth. I have found great comfort in a few areas...<BR/><BR/>www.paultrippministries.org - right here, right now... truth that although convicting, brings such hope in the end.<BR/>I also think of a book that i've heard many parents say was greatly encouraging to them:<BR/>Age of Opportunity<BR/>http://www.amazon.com/Age-Opportunity-Biblical-Parenting-Resources/dp/0875526055/ref=cm_lmf_tit_6_rsrssi0/104-6095683-2401542<BR/>I love the book Captivating for a women's soul... to heal & bring it to life. <BR/><BR/>I know it is hard to see another, especially one you love so much, become so blind to God's goodness & love but just as you say you will NEVER give up...neither we He. <BR/><BR/>Life has been hard for me lately. As I seek God's grace for my life, I will remember you and your family and ask God to pour His grace upon you.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12075278.post-10967706177936555722007-03-27T15:01:00.000-07:002007-03-27T15:01:00.000-07:00I cannot even begin to imagine your angst or your ...I cannot even begin to imagine your angst or your wives frustration. But I do understand (somewhat) the tiresome feeling when your children become teens and you can't wait (on some level) for them to be grown and on their own. It must be very very difficult to face the fact that they may never be able to be on their own. <BR/><BR/>I am praying for you and yours.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12075278.post-34153822942323516812007-03-26T12:05:00.000-07:002007-03-26T12:05:00.000-07:00Still praying...Still praying...Jada's Gigihttps://www.blogger.com/profile/16788954125336097153noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12075278.post-82187331006497515642007-03-26T02:40:00.000-07:002007-03-26T02:40:00.000-07:00My heart weeps ... because I know ... you must let...My heart weeps ... because I know ... you must let her go ... first in your mind and heart ... and then in her person. And the choice to go; the choice to stay; is hers. <BR/><BR/>I once had thought somewhere in the early years of marriage that I could "control" him, to some degree. Not in a super-controlling, manipulative kinda way. But in the way that ... if I do *this* ... then he will do whatever. I have read that concept in many a Christian book on marriage and heard it taught. But it is not true. His choices are his; mine are mine. And the pain of that reality . . .<BR/><BR/>Oh, you have articulated so much of what I have experienced in similar ways. The emotion. The fear ... of her staying ... of her going ... of the unknown ... of the children ... wrapped in the steadfast committment you have made. <BR/><BR/>Somehow, when we marry and speak those vows, we think our future becomes *known* in that it will be together forever.<BR/><BR/>I feel, through your words, the struggles of your wife ... and the struggles of her husband. Though you hold her body in your arms, you cannot hold her heart. <BR/><BR/>It is not about you, you know. And that you had a tumultuous 25 years or whether you would have had a picture-perfect 25 years ~ I'm not sure it would make a difference. This restlessness deep in the wells of her heart and soul, which she has not reconciled with her God, drives her despite any life circumstances ... conceived long before you met her ... and not laid at the feet of Jesus and left there ... I know it breaks your heart. <BR/><BR/>As a man, who by nature wants to care for and protect and fix, this must be a poignant place for you ... a place of brokenness ... where God has shown you ... your humanity ... your inability. <BR/><BR/>On my own level, as a woman, I understand. All I had been taught and learned about being a wife was washed down the drain. Meaningless. Even if I had done "it all right," as my counselor said once, and I probably did on many levels within my humanity, it would not have mattered. He was still given the freedom to choose.<BR/><BR/>I look back and see that I tried to hold what was never given to me as mine. Though his words spoke it to be so, and his will even desired it to be so on occasion, his actions proved it was not true. His heart was given to another ... something other than me.<BR/><BR/>Ironically, the Bible speaks to husbands and wives without condition. And you know this to be true because you live it. She doesn't love him *if* ... he doesn't love her *if* ... We obey simply because we love God.<BR/><BR/>I am sorry. I wrote like this a lot, though not on my blog b/c that was before I even knew blogging existed! Keep writing ... somewhere.<BR/><BR/>God will give her the freedom to turn her heart back home as long as she has not completely left.<BR/><BR/>Dear God, I know You are weeping. I know Your heart weeps and hurts as You care for Your Will through these painful days. Marriage is SOOO hard. I pray and ask that You touch Brenda's heart and soul and mind and body and drive her toward You, for it is only in You that she can endure, that she can love, that she can find complete peace. Heal her wounds; comfort her scars. Relieve Will of that which only You can do. Provide for Jeremiah and Isaac in supernatural ways. They need relief, Lord, from the burden of these children. Though they love their children, they need relief. I don't know what that looks like, but You do, and I ask that You provide that relief for them. Clearly show Will what is his and what is not. His humanity is bellowing, and he needs to let go of that which is not his to carry. Reveal this to him clearly, Lord, for only You know what that is. Continue to provide healing, strength, wisdom, discernment, endurance, peace, and love to Your precious son, Will. Thank You, Abba, for being God. I love You, God, AmeAnonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12075278.post-45870400857817781722007-03-25T12:51:00.000-07:002007-03-25T12:51:00.000-07:00Dear Curious Servent..I agree with Donna..The rain...Dear Curious Servent..I agree with Donna..The rainbows DO fade and disappear and then you are left with nothing but the pot of gold and each other!..Love TerryTerryhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/08917338886406940158noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12075278.post-29015935573864204302007-03-23T21:46:00.000-07:002007-03-23T21:46:00.000-07:00My Dear Friend, I can not tell you I can relate. ...My Dear Friend,<BR/><BR/> I can not tell you I can relate.<BR/><BR/> I will not quote scripture.<BR/><BR/> I have no criticism or advice.<BR/><BR/> I will not share an anecdote that I think is poignant. <BR/><BR/> I realize and respect that this is YOUR PERSONAL blog and you are kind enough to make it viewable to the public so that someone may benefit from your words.<BR/><BR/> You give and do and share with everyone and ask for nothing in return. This one time, I see you quietly ask for prayer. Amidst the whirlwind of screaming voices, I meekly, humbly offer this prayer.<BR/><BR/> Dear Lord,<BR/><BR/> Although we speak infrequently, you know when we do I never ask anything of you (directly) for myself. And when I do ask you for something, it is well thought out and not asked for lightly. Whatever merit my words hold with you, I ask that you grant my obedient request this time. As always, whatever you ask of me in return, I will gladly obey.<BR/><BR/> Lord, you have blessed me with many beautiful brothers and sisters. Some do your work while others do not. I know that you love us all the same. I ask this day that you consider those who do your work and teach your word with the greatest of conviction. Lord, my brother, your son, Will is in great pain and needs your guidance. Lord, if those who worship you, live and teach your word and try to live in your image deserve the rewards of your love, your protection, your guidance and have a place in your kingdom, please let it be known by this faithful servant of yours. <BR/><BR/> Lord, please bless and watch over Will, Brenda, Jeremiah and Isaac. Please grant them peace, love and unity. Please allow them to see that their pain, hardship and suffering was sacrificed toward a higher purpose and reward. Please let them find once again what they have lost and grant them the vision to behold and embrace their family bond once again. Please do not forsake their cries for help at this most crucial time.<BR/> I beg for your compassion and mercy to unite a family that has labored so hard to do your bidding while asking nothing in return.<BR/><BR/> In your name, oh Lord, I do pray.<BR/><BR/> AmenJudas Hatehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/04365103842960526841noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12075278.post-36143624654030401462007-03-23T15:49:00.000-07:002007-03-23T15:49:00.000-07:00this may sound like stupid words....but....I chase...this may sound like stupid words....but....I chased the rainbow...you know much of my pain these past few years...parenting, marriage, life is not easy....<BR/><BR/>Please tell Brenda I would love to encourge and talk to her....and I mean that....send her my way...<BR/><BR/>please tell her...it will always be easier if she stands beside you, wraps her arms around you and her boys and praises God for ALL He has given her.....what God has given her will last, the rainbows fade and disappear.......<BR/><BR/>love and prayers to you Will<BR/><BR/>Donnadonnahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/05964493445511234263noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12075278.post-49844606516278954532007-03-23T08:06:00.000-07:002007-03-23T08:06:00.000-07:00I sense the pain in your struggle, yet so apprecia...I sense the pain in your struggle, yet so appreciate your gifted words to express what many dare not admit. Praying for you and Brenda. C.S., God uses you more than you know. Your writing challenges me to face my own fears and be more honest about them. I've not been real enough in my own posts. I see that now.Vickihttps://www.blogger.com/profile/08601718675860240867noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12075278.post-29587006523017577752007-03-22T22:16:00.000-07:002007-03-22T22:16:00.000-07:00Hi CS. You have been an inspiration to me many ti...Hi CS. You have been an inspiration to me many times by your writing/blog entries. <BR/>This time is no exception. It leads me to pray more for you and your family. God bless you all, you are a young family, hurting right now.<BR/>Your commenters really are not like Jobs friends, they are thoughful, God loving and inspired words meant to be of comfort for you. <BR/>Brenda and boys, can they share in these words of love? Mrs. Jim doesn't always appreciate [mildly speaking] some of things I try to say about her. So I run my posts about her by her for 'censoring.' Things she doesn't want shared I won't share. Some of that will be her loss because readers won't know.<BR/><BR/>All that to say one thing on my mind. I started a post and wasn't a good enough writer to finish it.<BR/>The theme was to be rainbows, specifically that no two persons ever see the same rainbow. They may be similar, but each is a different one for another person. Everyone has his/her own rainbow.<BR/>..Jimhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/02982249173214655060noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12075278.post-55921486327678923792007-03-21T19:53:00.000-07:002007-03-21T19:53:00.000-07:00Thank you, all of you, for your kind words and pra...Thank you, all of you, for your kind words and prayers.<BR/><BR/>I know that even those who have strong feelings and strong words are trying to be reaffirming and encouraging.<BR/><BR/>I'd like to share a word or two about this post. It was more difficult to write because it is crititical in some ways to my wife, and I wish to encourage her, hold her up. I wish to avoid criticizing her.<BR/><BR/>But this post was written really for myself. I am trying to work through my own feelings here, trying to articulate what I feel.<BR/><BR/>I am concerned aboutmy family, especially my marriage.<BR/><BR/>This is not to imply that I feel that I can wash my hands of my children at some point.<BR/><BR/>What I seek for them is that they are someday able to live lives that are the fullest expression of their own freedoms. Aside from that, is the concern about the toll it is taking on us.<BR/><BR/>Many marriages end after the death of a child. Ours survived that. Many other marriages fail through the difficulties of raising children with special needs. There are also other factors which lead to the dissolution of a marriage.<BR/><BR/>I am simply concerned about mine.<BR/><BR/>I love all of you. I welcome your prayers.<BR/><BR/>But this post is simply my wrestling with the difficulties of trying to lead a life that is pleasing to my Lord, handles the challenges we have, and perhaps, grow old with my wife of 25 years.<BR/><BR/>Thanks again to all of you.<BR/><BR/>I love you.<BR/><BR/>--CSCurious Servanthttps://www.blogger.com/profile/11564580536911743558noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12075278.post-86723170574990596952007-03-21T18:32:00.000-07:002007-03-21T18:32:00.000-07:00Dear CS,I feel bad about the comment I posted yest...Dear CS,<BR/>I feel bad about the comment I posted yesterday, and I want to apologize for being so hard in my statements.<BR/>I should be the very last to point finger or pass judgement on anyone.<BR/>Your boys's problems just hit me in a very weak spot.<BR/>I've seen ugly things happen throughout the years working in an institution.<BR/>Clients were moved against their wish or had to undergo treatments I strongly resented of.<BR/>It hurts to see people hurt.<BR/>I wondered if I should not have tied so close bonds with the ones I was in charge of. <BR/>The psychologist working in my team said,<BR/>" you cannot predestine the clients future, but what ever good you can give, teach, build together, noone can take away, and these things will be a sours of strong foundation further on."<BR/><BR/>Those words really helped me, and for years they were my working mantra.<BR/>Why did i not write about that in my last comment?<BR/>I have no idea of what Brenda has been going through. She has for sure been giving all she had and could for many years. I hope she'll know that nothing was done in vain, even if she cannot keep on anymore.<BR/>God bless you both for the good things you have done. God give you mercy and strength, peace and love wherever your roads will lead.Felisol https://www.blogger.com/profile/12240191154632603841noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12075278.post-56797035599455988582007-03-21T16:07:00.000-07:002007-03-21T16:07:00.000-07:00I do not have children (God's choice for me), but ...I do not have children (God's choice for me), but from what I've seen with my parents...<BR/>a parent's job is NEVER finished!<BR/>No matter how old the child is,<BR/>a "parent" is a "parent"...no matter how old they become, we can still learn from them.<BR/><BR/>Remember, your children have "special" needs, therefore, you will always be needed...<BR/><BR/>Blessings to you and your family.<BR/><BR/>Take Care,<BR/>CocoCocohttps://www.blogger.com/profile/06648699375453601098noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12075278.post-4654886511899477812007-03-21T08:52:00.000-07:002007-03-21T08:52:00.000-07:00Praying for you brother..and for Brenda...Praying for you brother..and for Brenda...Jada's Gigihttps://www.blogger.com/profile/16788954125336097153noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12075278.post-71587226257267605112007-03-20T13:58:00.000-07:002007-03-20T13:58:00.000-07:00I feel the pain in your words and I wish I had ans...I feel the pain in your words and I wish I had answers. I don't except I know HE carried our pain and our sorrows. It's part of the price HE paid.Susanhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/11360047123820906113noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12075278.post-9504039859714925522007-03-20T12:35:00.000-07:002007-03-20T12:35:00.000-07:00Dear Curoius Servant. I have read your post and wi...Dear Curoius Servant. I have read your post and will print it out and take it to work with me tonight.<BR/>I just haven't the words to say except that I will pray for all three of you... Brenda, you and the boy.<BR/><BR/>Bill Scott has,it seems shared the same feelings as you guys so he is able to at least encourage you where as I can't.<BR/>And this is so sad because all of the encourgament that you have given to me!<BR/>God Bless you Curious Servant. I hope that you go and see Jel once in a while because your comments are always so nice!<BR/>She doesn't have a rainbow blog but it is full of sunshine!!Terryhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/08917338886406940158noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12075278.post-20663771999254122162007-03-20T12:18:00.001-07:002007-03-20T12:18:00.001-07:00CS,You and I have spoken a few times in the past. ...CS,<BR/><BR/>You and I have spoken a few times in the past. When my son almost died I was a mess. Yet a few years later I was a blubbering disaster. He lived but I was still hurting and so frustrated. I sat down to write my feelings and this is what I wrote:<BR/><BR/>After the Rain<BR/><BR/>Right after my storm; as the winds stopped and ceased<BR/>There was a great calm; as I sighed in relief<BR/>And though there is damage; from the previous rage<BR/>I can start a new chapter; and can turn a new page<BR/><BR/>But as the dust settles; and I clearly can see<BR/>I look through the rubble; though I would rather flee<BR/>Though all is destroyed; and there’s nothing but sand<BR/>I can still trust in my God; as He helps me to stand<BR/><BR/>As I survey the damage; and I calculate cost<BR/>The pain swells up in me; as I see all I’ve lost<BR/>Though I tremble in horror; and I ask the Lord why?<BR/>I know the Lord loves me; and it’s ok to cry. <BR/><BR/>It’s so overwhelming; as my emotions do flare<BR/>It’s easy to doubt; that my God really cares<BR/>And yes the storm passed; yet the fierce winds were real<BR/>It’s so hard to move on; as I struggle to heal<BR/><BR/>My eyes fill with water; my mouth gets all dry<BR/>My heart sinks in despair; as I long to die<BR/>My emotions, they hurt me; I hunger and thirst<BR/>My heart; it aches badly; I feel as if it will burst<BR/><BR/>The rain is now gone and the skies are now blue<BR/>Yet I still haven’t healed; from what I’ve gone through<BR/>And now time has passed; as life continues on<BR/>I still live in darkness; even though the night’s gone<BR/><BR/>I know this sounds gloomy; what else can I say?<BR/>The Lord will heal my heart; as I seek Him and pray?<BR/>My worst fears behind me; or that’s what they say<BR/>I once felt victorious; I now feel like prey<BR/><BR/>But all is not lost; though I feel that it is<BR/>For my heart isn’t mine, it is totally His<BR/>And my God is faithful; I’ll trust Him till I die<BR/>I will lift His name up; I will lift it up high<BR/><BR/>My God is my healer; he will one day heal me<BR/>And though I am now mourning; I will one day be free<BR/>For here is a truth; that I will try to explain<BR/>The Son always shines; even after the rain!<BR/><BR/>I hope this ministers to you as it did to me because I truly believe that the Lord gave me this poem.<BR/><BR/>BillBillhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/14617224023416969929noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12075278.post-51264949886830237732007-03-20T12:18:00.000-07:002007-03-20T12:18:00.000-07:00This comment has been removed by the author.Billhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/14617224023416969929noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12075278.post-24034668312416551302007-03-20T10:16:00.000-07:002007-03-20T10:16:00.000-07:00‘Begging God daily is the right place to be. Not t...‘Begging God daily is the right place to be. Not to possess anything in myself but to draw the day’s grace as the branch draws from the vine – whether bread or essays or purity of heart. Andrew Murray says it was God’s intention, in creating the universe, to communicate His attributes to His creatures. “But this communication was not meant to give created beings something they could possess in themselves, having full charge and access apart from Him. Rather, God as the ever present, ever living, ever active One….meant that the relationship of His creatures to Himself would be one of unceasing, absolute dependence.” (humility)<BR/>In your right mind you wouldn’t want it any other way. Andree’ Seu<BR/><BR/>Problem is how very rarely I find myself in my right mind...praying for all of you.....Gigihttps://www.blogger.com/profile/05805941956462456865noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12075278.post-80944059757504096902007-03-20T08:17:00.000-07:002007-03-20T08:17:00.000-07:00I've chased the rainbows and sometimes still do......I've chased the rainbows and sometimes still do...<BR/><BR/>GOD--this was a moving piece. This must be so hard for you. <BR/><BR/>sometimes chasing the rainbow is what one has to do. There may never be the gold but it can how a person survives in that moment in time. <BR/><BR/><BR/><BR/>beckyrebeccahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/04739335275578339422noreply@blogger.com